Well...

Now is the time to show that you really care, but it's also the same moment you're not there.

And I don't think that's forgivable.

Joke.

It's so funny how we waste the energy and time chasing after those who are CLEARLY not checking for us, and neglect those who really do care.

-Moment of Silence & Realization-

Thank you to those who really care. I, in this very moment, acknowledge you and your feelings/ intentions. And I appreciate you.

--

I'm so angry right now!! So angry that all I can do is cry.

=]

This just made me feel so much better.

you're dead to me now

I no longer believe it to be my fault
There's been an illness-
internal, chronic-
Inside of you
Eating you
Killing you
I no longer blame myself for your
self-inflicted perishment
Your casket lowers
Deeper, deeper
Into an abyss
Inside of me
You're almost forgotten
Empty
The further you are lowered
The more distanced you are from my heart
-->Out of sight, out of mind<--
Sincere condolenscesfor a bereaved soul
'In time your wounds will heal'
'There'll be someone else'
'Life hasnt ended yet'
These words rickoshe' off steel cold walls
-->Numb<--
I feel no emotion for your loss anymore
Your loss, my blessing
My eyes now cast a reflection in memory of you - Cold.
...You're dead to me now

conversations w/ cupid [tick tock...].

{PRELUDE}

The hands of time
bade me adieu
all the while
I was waiting for you
(while I)
Had conversations
with cupid on cue
hearing,
"Silly girl."
"Fresh like morning dew."
The "tick" and "tock"
no longer soothed
when help was needed
to push past 2
(a warm heart turned blue
in the absence of you)
now patience welcomes
the clock set anew

High.

Last one for today, for real.

I want to get high.

Push me beyond the gases of clouds, into the sky.
Propel me past the stars that luminate only at night.

I want something that can last longer.

Have me drown in a parallel universe
Where the sky is the ground, an abyss;
So far sunken in that the Milky Way leaves remnants on my lips.

Have me so chemically imbalanced,
That i choose to walk up to random strangers to speak
Where, even when I've collapsed into a valley, I peak
So content that there is nothing more I need.

No flicker, no spark, no smoke.
That is not the high I seek.

I want you.

-Tash.

REAL R`n B.

Now THIS is real R&B. Straight cut w/ the guitar riffs, harmony, & adlibs from the top of the dome.

Honda Skydeck-- *

Skydeck most def. is a suiting name for this Honda conceptual car. Could you imagine riding around in one of these? Royal flynesss.

-Credit to Yahoo!

bitter/sweet.

"when life hands you lemons,
make lemonade"

but I don't like lemonade, really don't care for it
so I choose to make orange juice instead

mistake #1

thinking I would reap a sweet result...mistake #2

frickin` WHOMP !!

Turns out Trey isn't coming to Miami anymore. ARE YOU SERIOUS?! I was patient when it got pushed back from Oct. 30th to Nov. 15th, but I check again to see the Orlando tour date is now in December, & a tour date for Miami is NO WHERE to be found!!

...the eff?

Ugh. This is 100% bull. When will I get to see my love? =[

You beautiful mother eff`er...

TIME: insufficient.

There's just not enough time in the day to be with you.
First work, cook, clean, then I can be with you.
Wanna be so close, surrounded that I see me in you.
Wish there were enough hours in the day so I could just be with you.

Not enough time...

Like looking up in the sky, determine what the clouds look like.

Not enough time...

To dance in the mirror, shake somethin', ain't scared to jiggle.

Not enough time...

Put our favorite songs on replay, and listen for the rest of the day.

Not enough time...

- Tash.

Just A Piece. *

But what happens once the alarm goes off?
And I'm wakin' up...
to the sunrays spillin' through the blinds,
Means separation for you and I?
Don't wanna ever watch the time,
Keep all clocks out of sight
Stay in bed all night just so I...
can dream, just dream.
Dream sweet only if you're in it with me.


-Tash.

You Can`t Run to Every New Thing Under thee Sun...

"You'll be a jack of all trades, but a master of NONE."

          - Asheru

& so I say to myself: GET YOUR MIND IN ORDER!!

bro/ken.

so i realized a little something about myself the other day when i was going thru my moods (which have become so second nature to me now) but i couldn't put it into words...at least not until my glasses fell to the floor [again]. a phrase came to mind that summed up the core of my bitterness,



"...that's why you're so broken now.
_Because you keep fallin'
__with no one around to catch you
___before you hit the ground..."



i thought i had my superhero to catch me whenever i fall. but that only happens in the movies.

its been a while.

Its been a while since I talked to You. Been a while since I kissed You, touched You, smelled You, hugged You, heard an, "I love you". And it saddens me. The words aren't really coming right now because I'm still so confused. Confused about what I want from you and what you want from me. Should I blame myself for being selfish? Or you for not understanding? I dont know. I just wish we could start over again, but I know that will never happen. You can't erase the past. Maybe I'll just settle for vanishing. It would make things all the more easy.

For You, for Him.

Your situation inspired this. =]

        I wish I had more
Time to laugh, love, be with you.
      I miss what we were.

Throwback: Ja Rule ft. Ashanti, Vita, & C. Baltimore.

Ahh man!! As you can tell, I'm throwback`ing so hard right now. I always loved this song & still do. Everybody did their thing on this track; Murder Inc. was so on point in the early 2000's. This is a true classic, in my eyes.

Throwback: Fabolous ft. Lil' Mo.

Throoowback; nostalgic in such a good way.

November = newness.

New month. Yeah, it went by quickly, but no need to feel like life is moving too fast, even though it may seem as if it is. Rather, get in stride with it and enjoy the blessing it is to be spared the opportunity to breathe and feel NOVEMBER air. Use this new month as an opportunity to start over.

A NEW BEGINNING.

Since this is the month of thanksgiving, take a second to give thanks to the One up high. Reflect on what you have; be grateful for those who love and are there for you. Be thankful for what GOD has blessed you with. Use this moment, this day to turn over a new leaf and embody positivity and love.

Happy November!!

freshout thee stove; HEAT. -- 11.01

New Heat!!

I'm liking this one from the No Ceilings mixtape. Really laidback, something to cruise to once that sun has set.
Lil' Wayne- Single [<< clicketh.]

Nice one by Wale.
Wale ft. Melanie Fiona & J. Cole- Beautiful Bliss [<< clicketh.]

Hot one by Usher. Hope he's really back to redeem himself from the failure "Here I Stand" turned out to be.
Usher- Daddy's Home [<< clicketh.]

Classic Luda.
Ludacris ft. Shawnna- How Low [<< clicketh.]

Rihanna's back. I like this song for some reason, even though I'm trying to persuade myself not to.
Rihanna- Wait Your Turn [Wait Is Ova] [<< clicketh.]

By the way, the official mixtape has dropped for No Ceilings. The link I had before was missing a few songs. Here is the whole mixtape.
Lil' Wayne- No Ceilings mixtape [Official] [<< clicketh.]