freshout thee stove; HEAT. -- 12.15

It's been a minute since I left some new tracks on here. So enjoy!

Really liking the vibe of this one.

Yung Berg ft. K Smith & Sincere- Bring Ya Girlfriends [<< clicketh.]

Mullage is doing their thing. So far, I haven't been disappointed with any of their leaked/released material.

Mullage ft. Ray Lavender- Faithful [<< clicketh.]

I'm loving the beat on this one. Too bad it's such a short music clip.

Young Jeezy & Ludacris- Go Girl [<< clicketh.]

Nice flow by Lloyd.

Lloyd ft. Mack Maine- What You Want [<< clicketh.]

New Jeezy & Wayne, Produced by Boi 1 Da.

Young Jeezy ft. Lil' Wayne- Scared Money [<< clicketh.]

Jeezy just had to get on the remix. No shame in that, though.

Young Jeezy- Money to Blow --Remix [<< clicketh.]

--quote.

I stole this, but oh well.

Know the potential of spoken words.

There is so much power in that phrase.

Y O U

intrigue me. I don't really know you, but I've seen you. I've created the qualities I imagine you bearing. Constructed the personality I think you'd have. All that I've pieced together holds a beautiful image. I don't really know you, but I wish I did.


You intrigue me. I think there's so much more to you than what meets the eye, one of a kind. Someone like I. I don't really know you, yet I think about you a lot. I picture you being someone I could vibe with. Someone to confide in. For some reason, I feel we could have great potential. I don't really know you, but I want to.

Question*

WHY DO I GET MY HOPES UP OVER ANY LITTLE THING? Pathetic? I think so.

set thee mood: INSPiRED. *

I am feeling super inspired right now. While rummaging through the endless bin of the cyber world, I stumbled upon the profiles/blogspots/youtubes of a couple of my peers. Each of them have honed a craft and are sharing it with the world. And those crafts just so happen to be in the field I love oh so much... MUSIC!! Now check this... They're both younger than me. Yet, inspiration is inspiration no matter the source, and they both inspire me. They inspire me to take my hobbies to the next level and share them with the world. They inspire me to teach myself the things I've always wanted to learn: web design, constructing my fashion designs, and producing beats. December just began and I want to use this month as a month of creation. I've abandoned quite a few of my hobbies: art, fashion sketches, songwriting, wasting my imagination and mind on unimportant things. Time to get back into the swing of things and have those creative juices flowing!

Well...

Now is the time to show that you really care, but it's also the same moment you're not there.

And I don't think that's forgivable.

Joke.

It's so funny how we waste the energy and time chasing after those who are CLEARLY not checking for us, and neglect those who really do care.

-Moment of Silence & Realization-

Thank you to those who really care. I, in this very moment, acknowledge you and your feelings/ intentions. And I appreciate you.

--

I'm so angry right now!! So angry that all I can do is cry.

=]

This just made me feel so much better.

you're dead to me now

I no longer believe it to be my fault
There's been an illness-
internal, chronic-
Inside of you
Eating you
Killing you
I no longer blame myself for your
self-inflicted perishment
Your casket lowers
Deeper, deeper
Into an abyss
Inside of me
You're almost forgotten
Empty
The further you are lowered
The more distanced you are from my heart
-->Out of sight, out of mind<--
Sincere condolenscesfor a bereaved soul
'In time your wounds will heal'
'There'll be someone else'
'Life hasnt ended yet'
These words rickoshe' off steel cold walls
-->Numb<--
I feel no emotion for your loss anymore
Your loss, my blessing
My eyes now cast a reflection in memory of you - Cold.
...You're dead to me now

conversations w/ cupid [tick tock...].

{PRELUDE}

The hands of time
bade me adieu
all the while
I was waiting for you
(while I)
Had conversations
with cupid on cue
hearing,
"Silly girl."
"Fresh like morning dew."
The "tick" and "tock"
no longer soothed
when help was needed
to push past 2
(a warm heart turned blue
in the absence of you)
now patience welcomes
the clock set anew

High.

Last one for today, for real.

I want to get high.

Push me beyond the gases of clouds, into the sky.
Propel me past the stars that luminate only at night.

I want something that can last longer.

Have me drown in a parallel universe
Where the sky is the ground, an abyss;
So far sunken in that the Milky Way leaves remnants on my lips.

Have me so chemically imbalanced,
That i choose to walk up to random strangers to speak
Where, even when I've collapsed into a valley, I peak
So content that there is nothing more I need.

No flicker, no spark, no smoke.
That is not the high I seek.

I want you.

-Tash.

REAL R`n B.

Now THIS is real R&B. Straight cut w/ the guitar riffs, harmony, & adlibs from the top of the dome.

Honda Skydeck-- *

Skydeck most def. is a suiting name for this Honda conceptual car. Could you imagine riding around in one of these? Royal flynesss.

-Credit to Yahoo!

bitter/sweet.

"when life hands you lemons,
make lemonade"

but I don't like lemonade, really don't care for it
so I choose to make orange juice instead

mistake #1

thinking I would reap a sweet result...mistake #2

frickin` WHOMP !!

Turns out Trey isn't coming to Miami anymore. ARE YOU SERIOUS?! I was patient when it got pushed back from Oct. 30th to Nov. 15th, but I check again to see the Orlando tour date is now in December, & a tour date for Miami is NO WHERE to be found!!

...the eff?

Ugh. This is 100% bull. When will I get to see my love? =[

You beautiful mother eff`er...

TIME: insufficient.

There's just not enough time in the day to be with you.
First work, cook, clean, then I can be with you.
Wanna be so close, surrounded that I see me in you.
Wish there were enough hours in the day so I could just be with you.

Not enough time...

Like looking up in the sky, determine what the clouds look like.

Not enough time...

To dance in the mirror, shake somethin', ain't scared to jiggle.

Not enough time...

Put our favorite songs on replay, and listen for the rest of the day.

Not enough time...

- Tash.

Just A Piece. *

But what happens once the alarm goes off?
And I'm wakin' up...
to the sunrays spillin' through the blinds,
Means separation for you and I?
Don't wanna ever watch the time,
Keep all clocks out of sight
Stay in bed all night just so I...
can dream, just dream.
Dream sweet only if you're in it with me.


-Tash.

You Can`t Run to Every New Thing Under thee Sun...

"You'll be a jack of all trades, but a master of NONE."

          - Asheru

& so I say to myself: GET YOUR MIND IN ORDER!!

bro/ken.

so i realized a little something about myself the other day when i was going thru my moods (which have become so second nature to me now) but i couldn't put it into words...at least not until my glasses fell to the floor [again]. a phrase came to mind that summed up the core of my bitterness,



"...that's why you're so broken now.
_Because you keep fallin'
__with no one around to catch you
___before you hit the ground..."



i thought i had my superhero to catch me whenever i fall. but that only happens in the movies.

its been a while.

Its been a while since I talked to You. Been a while since I kissed You, touched You, smelled You, hugged You, heard an, "I love you". And it saddens me. The words aren't really coming right now because I'm still so confused. Confused about what I want from you and what you want from me. Should I blame myself for being selfish? Or you for not understanding? I dont know. I just wish we could start over again, but I know that will never happen. You can't erase the past. Maybe I'll just settle for vanishing. It would make things all the more easy.

For You, for Him.

Your situation inspired this. =]

        I wish I had more
Time to laugh, love, be with you.
      I miss what we were.

Throwback: Ja Rule ft. Ashanti, Vita, & C. Baltimore.

Ahh man!! As you can tell, I'm throwback`ing so hard right now. I always loved this song & still do. Everybody did their thing on this track; Murder Inc. was so on point in the early 2000's. This is a true classic, in my eyes.

Throwback: Fabolous ft. Lil' Mo.

Throoowback; nostalgic in such a good way.

November = newness.

New month. Yeah, it went by quickly, but no need to feel like life is moving too fast, even though it may seem as if it is. Rather, get in stride with it and enjoy the blessing it is to be spared the opportunity to breathe and feel NOVEMBER air. Use this new month as an opportunity to start over.

A NEW BEGINNING.

Since this is the month of thanksgiving, take a second to give thanks to the One up high. Reflect on what you have; be grateful for those who love and are there for you. Be thankful for what GOD has blessed you with. Use this moment, this day to turn over a new leaf and embody positivity and love.

Happy November!!

freshout thee stove; HEAT. -- 11.01

New Heat!!

I'm liking this one from the No Ceilings mixtape. Really laidback, something to cruise to once that sun has set.
Lil' Wayne- Single [<< clicketh.]

Nice one by Wale.
Wale ft. Melanie Fiona & J. Cole- Beautiful Bliss [<< clicketh.]

Hot one by Usher. Hope he's really back to redeem himself from the failure "Here I Stand" turned out to be.
Usher- Daddy's Home [<< clicketh.]

Classic Luda.
Ludacris ft. Shawnna- How Low [<< clicketh.]

Rihanna's back. I like this song for some reason, even though I'm trying to persuade myself not to.
Rihanna- Wait Your Turn [Wait Is Ova] [<< clicketh.]

By the way, the official mixtape has dropped for No Ceilings. The link I had before was missing a few songs. Here is the whole mixtape.
Lil' Wayne- No Ceilings mixtape [Official] [<< clicketh.]

--no lie, sometimes I...

Want to be in love so I could write one of those songs or poems. You know those kinds...

cup of `TEA.

Sitting here with a hot cup of tea...

He gives me reason
To feed in--
to this feeling he gave me.
How he discreetly managed to have me fall into that ditch
You know... that ditch of love.

So here's my cup.
Take it before it overfloweth.
For just 1 spilled drop, he would surely take notice.
The way he noted: SPILLED CONTENT IS THE BEST MESS TO CLEAN--
Simply means you had THAT much love for me.
This is my cup of tea, and love it is indeed.

So stir...
Stir with your strong, calloused hands...
Stir emotions to quell the fire in my soul.
See if you can have me in moments both hot and cold.
Different degrees of my tea for your tongue to enjoy.

So enjoy.

But don't forget to add a few sugar packets.
At times, I'm not so sweet;
I come with a couple of bad habits.
But my cup sits, awaiting your claim.
Go and have at it.

I come with a cup of tea, and wanted you to have it.

Hm...

"...if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone?"

--Ecclesiastes 4:11

     Maybe a soulmate is designed for each person on this earth.

freshout thee stove; HEAT. -- 10.28

NEW MUSIC!!


I see you Dondria!! But I need your own record to come out. Been waiting long enough.
Pleasure P ft. Dondria- Under --remix [<< clicketh.]

Wayne decided to give us more of what he's truly good at. Some good ol' freestyles. His mixtape No Ceilings has just come out, but I'll hold off on the downloading myself b/c I have a STRONG feeling I'll be disappointed. He needs to sharpen his flow up. I need those crafty, ingenious lines he came with on the Drought 3. But be the judge for yourself.
Lil' Wayne- No Ceilings mixtape [<< clicketh.]

Plies has a new one out. Production by Polow da Don, & Miss Keri baby on the hook.
Plies ft. Keri Hilson- Medicine [<< clicketh.]

Lupe's back!!
Lupe Fiasco- Turnt Up freestyle [<< clicketh.]

Timbo's working on the sequel to Shock Value.
Timbaland ft. Drake- Say Something [<< clicketh.]

I love how Ryan Leslie [who is truly talented] is bringing real music back. & by real music, I mean the feel and instrumentation. I'm so tired of these generic sounds. I wanna hear flutes, horns, piano keys, drums, harmonicas, cymbals, acoustic guitars. Something symphonic that makes me want to move as soon as I hear it.
Ryan Leslie- To the Top [<< clicketh.]

I was put on this by Claire like last month, but I'm listening to it now & I wanna "plug" it.
Consequence ft. Kanye West & John Legend- Whatever U Want [<< clicketh.]

--ridiculous REALiZATION.

I haven't bought a pair of sneakers since this year began!! Can you say in-sane?

-sigh- Why don't they make kicks like they used to?

thee End of a Chapter.

October, that is. I find it so insane how it's almost the end of the month when it feels like it just started. This happens everytime, though. Life is zooming by, whether or not you're in sync with it.


--on another note, I found this thing I wrote on my phone a whiiile back & I've been wanting to share it. No official title for whatever it is this is. Just "motorcycle."


    "You gotta trust me, bay," he spoke softly, barely above a whisper looking me square in my eyes. Hesitation so palpable in my air, I glanced down at his extended hand, an invitation for my hand to join, then back at the rest of his body that sat rigidly on his '87 coffee chrome Harley. He licked his lips and contorted his features into one of impatience and hurt.

I know he was probably thinking entrusting him with my life was something I haven't come to do but that wasn't the case. I was just...afraid. Afraid of actually coming to realize I trust him THAT much. The thought washed over my psyche like a wave, causing me to shiver. It earned a look of concern from him.

"Bay..." he started in a pleading tone, "come ride wit' me." Even if I had no ears to receive the sound waves he submitted with his mouth, I could simply look at him, into his olive brown eyes and conclude he was begging. I tried to stall for as long as I could by averting my attention to the traffic that flew by us from where we were stationed. The wind blew, increasing the cold temperature. I wrapped my jacket tighter around my torso before making up my mind. Taking one more look at the hand that held out to me, open and waiting to receive the heat of my palm that signified much more than accepting a ride on his bike, I brought my lips into my mouth. Shaking my head from left to right slowly, I took one step back.

His head flinched back slightly at the movement. He looked so hurt but I chose to overlook it 'cause I knew the deal. Letting out a shuddering sigh, I closed my eyes tightly as my hand searched through the night for his hand. Once my palm lay in his, he tightly clasped his hand around mine. I smiled through closed eyes.

"I love you," he said.

Finally opening my eyes, I replied "I love you, too."

...but I'm different;

I can't base what I'm gonna be off of what everybody isn't.




   If these words don't soak in, and embed themselves into my mind... I'm tired of this doubt that rises from the pit of my stomach whenever I think about the future. The fear that stems from within has me feeling so nauseous, has my eyebrows furrowing, has my body tense, has my mind going haywire in worry. Looking around, I see where everyone else has ended up and I feel like I'll be subjected to that mediocrity, but I don't want it. I don't want to feel this way. I want to KNOW that I'll be successful, and above all, I want to know that I'll be HAPPY in whatever it is I do. Sick and tired of these lame jobs I find myself at, wasting my time [something I can't EVER get back once it's gone], and super unhappy at. So over feeling like my career will be as unsatisfying as these jobs have been/ are. My field of interest is the Arts and I know my main hindrance is my fright. I'm so scared that I don't have what it takes to excel in this field. I need to break out of this shell and break out of the habit of feeling doubtful. I have what it takes, and I'm very much capable. Life and death are in the power of the tongue, so I shall speak goodness and success into my life.

10.19.09

   Sometimes I wonder why. Why GOD allows the things that do happen, to occur. I feel like I'm living in a fantasy world and that I should grow up, but is it wrong to really dream of and want a world of no tragedies, no evil, no bad? Is it wrong to not want the tears, the tear-jerking moments, the pain? I have a split perspective on this. While I feel that it doesn't/ shouldn't have to be this way, I question who I think I am for feeling this way. I have no say and I'm not even worthy of voicing my opinion. All I can do is pray and hope for better. Not just for my family, not just for myself, but for all the good people out there who are really going through it right now.

`nSPiRED.

Music plays such a huge role in my life, granted the power to affect me emotionally. Browsing around on Twitter, I stumbled upon a lovely young woman's Twitter page. Her name is Skye Townsend. She is VERY talented, and she's only 15...if that information is accurate. All in all, she's young and gifted. Her voice is rich for someone her age. Just wanted to shed some light upon her. If you ever decide to venture onto her Myspace page, here is the link. [Skye Townsend Myspace <<clicketh.] & check out her song "Miami." Good stuff. =]

early Sunday BOREDOM.

Real music. Raw talent.

TREY is C R A Z Y .

Gotta love it though. "LOL =]"

special gift for OCTOBER. *

In celebration of a new month [already?! Crazy!!], I shall be posting up a storm. Don't mind me. =]

truth.

maybe, if you gave me, I wouldn't have let him take me.

your COOL.

When you try, you can't. But when you don't, you are.

So just be.

...spur.

maybe, if you were my baby, I could birth the idea of you & me.

UP on a PEDESTAL. * X's 2

Can't help myself. I'm on the `net, looking up shoes I wish I could afford & wear. =/ @ least I can daydream I have `em.

These are just DUMB hot.


--- on another note: who knew Bakers sold sneakers? Am I just out of the loop?

I ...want to marry these shoes!! Fell in love since I first saw them @ Bakers.

freshout thee stove; HEAT.

New music. These are kind of old in my eyes, but maybe they'll be of some use to anyone interested.


Omarion- Last Night/ Kinkos [<<clicketh.]


I don't know HOW many versions of this song Lloyd is gonna come out with. There was one with Juelz [ay!!], Wayne, & now Pusha T?! OK Lloyd, the song is hot; no need for the several different versions.


Lloyd ft. Pusha T- Pusha [<<clicketh.]


Mya's tryna come back out. How do I feel about it? Ehh...


Mya ft. Nicki Minaj- Ponytail [<<clicketh.]


Nicki Minaj- Gettin' Paid [<<clicketh.]

UP on a PEDESTAL. *

Shoes, shoes...and you guessed it. More shoes. Evidently, this is the "trend." But I'm not a big fan. I have a name for shoes styled this way, which I won't share. But for some reason, these cute sandals stand out to me. I actually think these are hot.

Rocked the right way, these could be too fly. Makes me wanna hit Polyvore up. =]

` thread & LACE --Wednesdays. X's 2 *

      Clearly, this will be a new feature. My creations on the website Polyvore [<<clicketh. ] which gives you the ability to think, act, and be like a fashion stylist. Create fashions for yourself, your friends, your "clients," or any celebrity you wish.

beachside-- it`s a lifeSTYLE. by shacoli* featuring Dorothy Perkins

Sittin' pretty with the elites of Cali? THIS would definitely be a good look.

` thread & LACE --Wednesdays.

NY sidewalk profilin` by shacoli* featuring Forever21

Definitely can strut through the crowded streets of NY, and get seen in an instant. Papa--paparazziii.

Afraid to E X P A N D .

Corner to corner,
I spot opportunity over each shoulder.


But afraid to take it, too scared to lay claim to it. I know what my interests are, very much aware of what appeals to me, but I can't shake the fright. The fear to pursue. The fear of growth.


I am afraid to fail.


I know the only way to expand, is to experience.
But how can one experience what one is afraid of feeling?


Hopefully, I will build enough motivation and courage to go after my dreams. I don't want to be a dreamer too comfortable with just dreaming.*

dinner TONIGHT?

devoured.

i know YOU will like this.

Him.

Take me...HiGHER.

I saw this on Yahoo maybe about a week ago. Reeeaally intriguing and straight out beautiful.




Tree restaurants.

Can you imagine that view and vibe? Picture the moon's glow cascading down, slipping into the cracks, shining upon you.

Stunning.


-Credit to Yahoo!

This is for my music JUNKIES...

Ok, so...am I the only one that is loving this "Hot Revolver" by Wayne??? I mean I know I may be a bit late but I fell in love at first listen. Yet I have asked others for their input on the song and they dub it as 'nothing special'. Come...on! This is Wayne (by far) at his best. The implementation of different elements in the progression of the song had me falling deeper and deeper into the beauty that is music. I don't particularly go for music like that, espesially rock induced music, but I do appreciate quality music when I hear it and by Wayne's standards...that's good music. I was a little iffy when I heard of upcomings and talk of an all rock album. The Greatest Rapper Alive pt. 5 did not give much justice to his experimentation of it at the time. I was even a bit weary when I heard that Hot Revolver was going to be his second single off said rock album. Prom Queen was alright. Catchy. But a little sloppy to say the least. But when I gave Hot Revolver a chance I noticed it was a bit different. Cleaner. And by the end of the song I was caught begging for an encore. I am so in love with this song. Why doesn't anyone see the greatness in this song?!!??

Enasha signing off

Peace!...and much luv to ya

"1" --loneliest number.

Blog numero uno.


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