its been a while.

Its been a while since I talked to You. Been a while since I kissed You, touched You, smelled You, hugged You, heard an, "I love you". And it saddens me. The words aren't really coming right now because I'm still so confused. Confused about what I want from you and what you want from me. Should I blame myself for being selfish? Or you for not understanding? I dont know. I just wish we could start over again, but I know that will never happen. You can't erase the past. Maybe I'll just settle for vanishing. It would make things all the more easy.